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hmmm... Today was really itchy
I got out of bed really late because my alarm clock has broken and I cannot afford a new one at the moment. I feel a bit strange because we've just moved to Idaho and there's a weird smell in the house. I'm so sad. My kitten got run over this afternoon. I found him when I was coming home from school. His head was all squished. I took some photos. I'll miss him. Poor kitty. Last night I had to masturbate twenty times. I'm so horny. Click here to see my website. I want to tell the world to get fucked. I am making this journal Friends Only because of the perverts and stalkers who only want to see my photos. Today, I got a digital camera! Yes! Here's some photos of my cock. I want to say thanks to the world for absolutely fucking nothing! You all suck. I feel so alone, no one ever reads this journal, or even comments to let me know that I'm not suffering alone. It's cold here, and I want to die, but I cannot figure out how many of you to take with me when I go. I went to the doctor yesterday, and he said I have a terrible skin disease which prevents me from coming into contact with other human beings. And bipolar disorder. You should all do this quiz! It's amazingly accurate. You just put in your name and birthday, and it will tell you next week's lottery numbers. That's enough for now. But I'll leave you with this poem I wrote. It's about my friend Robert, who has bipolar disorder. Just like me. And Heidi.
stuff Hi everyone! hope everyone is doing wonderful. i am doing much better since i dropped my comp class. i made a 92 on my educational measurement exam. i have taken care of all my school stuff so far. my mom has been really crazy lately and i have had alot of trouble dealing with her. i was supposed to travel with her next week to philadelphia and ft myers, but she has decided that i am not going to go with her. sad times. i wish that we could just get along. :( she is being really mean. more later. got to go on a walk with swayze.
Durnit So adam had to go away to Georgia for a while. at first it was 2-6 months, now the estimate is 40-60 days. sounds much better to me. i miss him terribly though. sad.
lickin chickin well. here it is. sunday. the end of the weekend. it feels like it is the end of the week, like i have been busy for days, and still am. so last week was going fine until tuesday, when my mom went blind. sight returned in one eye, but we rushed to memphis on wednesday for emergency sugery. i missed class for three days and feel like i have been gone for a month. i missed work, at a time when the bills are drowning me. i have a void, something is wrong. perhaps it has something to do with the fact that i spent 3 solid days with my mother, and well, we dont exactly like each other. she makes me feel like no other on this earth can. now i feel brittle, scared, emotional, and regretful all at once. there is a feeling in my stomach that i felt all the time when i lived with her. a churning that dulls other senses, causes me to focus only there. a slight nagging feeling, undescribable really. i cant even begin to explain this woman. she is beyond the realm of words. she just is. is everything i never want to be. i miss my boyfriend haylie
Sleep Deprivation... I am so sleep deprived. i had a really busy weekend. saturday was w fest all morning, then went out to lunch with some friends. adam got here around 4:30 and we hung out all night. we stayed at the regal inn (used to be the super 8.) it was pretty nice for $35 a night. the only downside, no free shampoo bottles. sunday, got up early and went to mcdonalds for the mamselle car wash. that was fun. we made over $200. yay. then went back and took a nap w/ the boyfriend and got up to go to ruben's for dinner. yum. then we went to johnny & leah's house. i think dustin and leah definitely approved of the boyfriend. yesterday, got up, went to class, then went to hang out w/adam some more. we ended up being sucked into an event with my mother. dear god. i feel for adam now. but at least he knows what to expect from now on. then we got swayze and hung out and thats about it. he left this morning. sad. last night there was this bunny on campus. s/he darted out of the bushes and ran across the street. later, when leaving the dorm, we saw it again. then later we found a run over baby rabbit in front of the dorm. it was very sad. :( it is still there. apparently these rabbits were everywhere and people were catching them. wierd huh? anyway, off to take a nap. have a fun evening. haylie
per request 1. i love the smell of cut grass 2. i like pink 3. i was born in 1984 4. december is my fav month 5. yellow chicks are cool 6. yellow ducks are cool 7. bud light is good 8. frozen margaritas are good 9. i am mr president 10. i have a large ass 11. i have a very large mouth 12. which enjoys laughing at everything 13. i am in college 14. i have a green cell phone 15. my fav food is veggie lasagna 16. i have a boyfriend named adam 17. i used to live in madison, ms 18. i moved to columbus,ms in 5th grade 19. my mom has mental problems 20. and beat me as a child 21. maybe thats why i am such a bitch 22. i like flowers 23. boys are stupid 24. my dad is an asshole 25. i sometimes claim i am irish 26. i have an odd sense of humor 27. more later A hundred days have made me older since the last time that i updated my web page.... yeah. i know. its been a while. my hair is tickling my face. the boyfriend finally left me monday. i even caught up on my school work.
summer of 69 so spring break is almost here. i am mucho excited about this. adam is coming for a few days. yay. yay. yay. ok enough. i never thought i would turn into the mushy type. i am kinda scaring myself recently. anyway, no new developments as of late. cant wait to get the hell outta here for a little while. i have a headache. must be the sinuses. went to see dr. pardo today. i am absolutely amazed that i can spend an hour right before a paper is due on writing it and get an a, while people spend almost 2 weeks on various outlines and rough drafts for the same paper and are barely passing. guess english ed is a good major for me. everything i have ever turned in for this class has required minimal effort on my part. hope this doesnt bite me in the ass later. i have a portfolio due soon in my teaching special students class. it is going very well. for those of you that dont know, i am seeking my special education certification. cant wait. i have had a passion for special students since i was little. i think i just got an average test score tonight on my ed. measurement test. i hate being average. its so blah. i freaking hate my american lit class. only because i am already familiar with most of the material we cover so for some reason i just cant force myself to make it to class. lately i have, however, been doing really well with actually getting my lazy butt up and going. so yay yay yay. life is good. school is good. letterman is not very funny. have a wonderful day. haylie
Oh what a weekend so i had a strange weekend. it was horrible and wonderful all at the same time. swayze and i thought we were dying. friday, went to class where i looked like death, went to work and had to come home after about an hour b/c literally felt like i would barf or faint. swayze calls me sat at like 7 am. needless to say i was wide awake b/c whatever is making me sick is also causing insomnia. we got up and decided we would go to wal-mart and get some sort of remedy. we ended up heading over to family medical center though. funny thing is, my insurance changed FRIDAY to a new provider. the day before i actually need the stupid stuff for the first time in forever, i got changed to a new provider that is not covered by this clinic. i almost went bananas. i was sweating and felt (and looked)like a piece of roadkill, and this women is trying to tell me that exactly one day before this day, i could have had full coverage of this visit and not had to pay up front for the office visit. so yeah, i was a little rude to the woman. we ended up going to a different doctor and were there from 8:30 to 12. i was about to scream by the time we walked out of there. so swayze has strep and i have a bad sinus infection and chest congestion. he said i prob also had strep but he did not want to test me b/c the meds for my sinus infection would cover it as well. so fun right? i ended up being absent from work fri and sat, which sucks b/c i will be seriously poor next week and my phone bill is already a bit past due. anyway, on to more positive things. so adam got here around 4:30 yesterday. things were really wierd at first, but then they picked up really quickly. he even asked me if it would be alright if he kissed me before he did it. isnt that sweet? i was sick, really sick, and just laid in his lap and coughed all night while he petted me. we stayed in starkville at the holiday inn. it was fantastic minus the fact that i couldnt sleep. i would wake up every 15-30 minutes and cough and whine (it just came out, i promise. im not usually a whiner.) i would usually wake him up to, but he was so sweet about it. he kept asking 'you alright baby' and 'what's wrong?' you know, nice things that only the really rare boys say. i am really starting to like him. he just seems like he genuinely cares. like last week, he begged me to stay with him and not to leave. i was being a cunt though and had just met him so i left, not knowing what exactly i was walking away from. i am sorry i left now. he slept with his arms tight around be, massaged my chest when i would cough, kept rubbing his feet against mine. it was great. it feels great to just sleep in the same bed as someone and have the physical contact that everyone desires. he is freaking awesome. or maybe i have just been neglected/mistreated for so long i dont remember what awesome is anymore. hmmm. food for thought. anyway, he is coming again next weekend. yay. so we had part of soph/jun rivalry earlier. i was so tired that i was not much fun at all. when we had to search for the president, i got left behind somehow, and ended up being seperated from the group for a while. i just couldnt keep up. i have got to get it together. thank goodness spring break is at the end of this week. peace out homies. haylie
Ahhh Betty Crocker.... so today has been very busy, but very uneventful. just the rush from class to work and back to class all day long. blah blah blah. this weekend seems like it will be promising though. my friend katrina is coming up, bkt brewhaha is this friday, and my friend adam is coming to see me saturday. i am kinda nervous about that. rivalry starts this sunday, and it should be fun. we planned some things for it today. i am kinda dissapointed though after some things went down tonight. as i sit here alone in my room i start to think about some things, and i just am not to very sure what i want right now. i thought i was sure, but the more i think about it, the more i wonder. i talked to my dad tonight for the first time in a while. it was wierd. he kinda pisses me off. i am not feeling well at the moment. i miss my old friends. it makes me sad. we figured out the living situation. we found an apartment on 3rd avenue. me, stacy, and swayze will live there until august when stacy will move back in the dorm and kate will move in her room. i am just really glad i dont have to live in the dorm next semester. we are gonna move in mid-april. it is a 3 bedroom, one bath and has hardwood floors. guess that means i need to buy an area rug. the floors need to be extensively cleaned, and i hope i will be able to paint my room considering that the whole house is a stark white. anyway, cheers to better days. peachy days baby dolls. haylie
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